And because I feel like it's necessary, I'll start from the very beginning. It was the Fall of 2008, I remember it very distinctively, partly because I was at my (non-pregnant) heaviest.
We had just moved into a new house, a new ward, away from all my old friends. Our third son was only just a few months old, and I was in the deepest depression I had ever (and I hope it stays that way) found myself in. I was miserable, and from Halloween to New Year's Eve, only left the house a handful of times (because I had to). I didn't want to see, talk, or be near anybody. I remember sitting in front of the TV in the evening, like a zombie, so zoned out as to not even care what was playing in front of me, no laughs, no tears, no nothing.
I knew I was depressed, but I didn't know why. I lived in a nice house, in a nice neighborhood, had a "good" marriage, three healthy loving children, financially things were good. So why? Why was this the worst I had ever felt in my life?
Then, one day, after a routine doctor's visit, I was told I had very HIGH cholesterol. Excuse me, SAY WHAT? Don't only old, balding, overweight men have high cholesterol? Well...apparently not, and it wasn't too long after that I decided things needed to change.
I gave myself two choices.
1.You can sit around the house in your jammies making excuses...OR
2. You can get over yourself.Just like that, I made the decision. I got over myself, and, as the excuses came, I quickly squashed them.
Let's quickly list all the reasons this isn't selfish:
- It's not.
- Seriously? You don't deserve an hour of your own day?
- Your health (mental and physical) are important to your loved ones.
- What better way to teach your children how to love and take care of their own bodies than by example. Just sayin'...
Is it hard? YES! Can you do it? YES! And the only person who can stop you is you!